early morning grouchiness

It’s 4am. I actually woke up around 3am but couldn’t go back to sleep. I’ve got a bad case of writer’s block. My writing really sucks. Lately my sentence structure has been pretty simplistic, mostly “I [verb] [rest of sentence].” Ugh. It’s so stilted too. My writing used to be better than this. What the fuck happened? I read a lot. I thought that if you read a lot your writing would improve. Well, evidently not. I can spot spelling and simple grammatical mistakes easily but that doesn’t really get me anywhere. I feel like a spelling curmudgeon. Like, GOD why can’t people spell anymore? It’s all going down the drain. Ugh. Maybe my inability to write a coherent easy-to-read sentence is just an indication of just how far I’ve gone downhill. Or maybe I haven’t downhill, maybe it’s just more experience telling me how much I sucked all along. GOD what a curse. Or maybe I’m being too hard on myself. Gah. Most of the time I’m afraid I come off as pretentious. Maybe I am a little. It’s just a front to disguise a raging insecurity.

My roommate upstairs annoys me. Last night he came into the kitchen where I was eating microwave fettuccini alfredo and he said, “sounds good.” I corrected him, saying “smells good.” He was all huh? what? say what? Image

I SERIOUSLY need to get some perspective pronto. Sheesh. Need to get a life.

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8 thoughts on “early morning grouchiness

  1. OMG, Nancy! Are you kidding? You are an amazing writer, and you’ve always been one of those people who have a “way with words.” If there is anything I learned from my job working at the WC it’s that we’re all insecure about our own writing. Don’t judge your writing ability on the basis of “complexity.” One of my best phil professors once told our class that ‘clarity,’ not ‘complexity,’ should be the goal. There were a lot of big-shot prelaw students in my class who felt that they needed to throw lots of 50-cent words around, but the reality is that a so-called ‘simpler’ way of stating something is often more effective. Friedrich Nietzsche was one of the most brilliant philosophers of the 19th Century, but he was notorious for being a terrible writer. Why? Because his sentences were extremely (and unnecessarily) complicated.

    🙂 Kristi

  2. Thanks! but I think I try too hard. Yeah, I agree, a complex sentence structure isn’t necessarily good writing. It still needs lots of improvement though. I’m way too self conscious and I have a hard time controlling that.

  3. I have to second Kristi’s opinion. You write honestly, clearly, and eloquently. I think your third theory is on-spot, you’re too hard on yourself. 😛

  4. Nancy…. it’s true.. you are all in which the wonderful things stated above.. now can you please help me write an cover letter? “just kidding” Where are you!! Just remember..because you are your own toughest critic.. it’s best to step back and give yourself some credit for all the things that as a result was a postive out come.. And YOU know what I mean by that. 🙂

  5. Are you kidding me? Your writing is good! It is clear and I understand it! If you do subject + verb + rest of sentence then you should for the government as a Plain Language writer! I took a class in the Writing System and told us that is the best way to write!

  6. Oh my. Thanks for the outpouring of compliments and support. It means a lot to me. I guess all I can do is keep trying.

  7. I agree with “Mean Face” (I feel awful calling you that, but I don’t know your real name :(). The most important objective in all writing is to get your message across. Forget about all the fancy stuff. Most of it sounds like BS anyway. How’s that for direct (laugh) 🙂

  8. Heh, now all I have to do is organize my thoughts into something coherent. Maybe that was my problem after all.

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